Boss' back today! I was quite apprenhensive last night just thinking of his return.. Haha so stupid. It turned out better than what I expected, he even bought me something from Prague! LOL.. So see, most of the time, our worries don't come to past.

Met Yang at the Esplanade to play the piano! He was/is such an awesome player..... But I didn't have the 'mood' to play today... =( It was quite horrible. Wanted to record a song so as to change my blog's song.. But in vain! The presence of a recorder was/is quite daunting. =( And it's quite hard to play a piece without error.. =( Anyway, I am anticipating my long-awaited piano lesson next friday! A lot of fixing up to be done... Haha.. Yay good good.

*Yang at work* Very impressed! Ok ok! I'm on my (long) way!! hehehehe...

Oh by the way, I really love MeePok. How? LOL... I ate that for lunch and dinner today.. LOL.. Simply irresistable. So if anyone wanna date me out, I'll be satisfied with just a bowl of MeePok LOL.. Maybe I need to be more sophiscated? Eh.. But who cares. Hahahaha.

snob (snŏb) Pronunciation Key n.
1) One who tends to patronize, rebuff, or ignore people regarded as social inferiors and imitate, admire, or seek association with people regarded as social superiors.
2) One who affects an offensive air of self-satisfied superiority in matters of taste or intellect.

-www.dictionary.com

Within a week, 2 persons have complained to me about snobbish people in their schools...

Snobs should really stay at home and sleep... We should understand that God has given every single one of us talents. A talent is a gift and we can't choose it. Some are good in writing... Some in drawing... accounting.. sports.. music.. IT... In any case, we all have talents... Just different ones. And A can't say to B that A is better, like a basketball is not any better than a table tennis ball... You just can't compare like that... It makes no sense. A basketball has its own role to play and similarly for a table tennis ball...

Well, and if both have the same talent, the one who has 'gone further' should just look ahead towards his goal and not turn around to mock at the other, lest he trips and falls. Eww, snobs can really get on my nerves...

We gotta understand that a talent is given by God and we must use it to glorify Him. Period.

Had a conversation with Jeff last week and he was sharing about his Batam mission trip with the SOT... I admire him a lot. Well, shall keep the conv private, all I can say is that he gave his all for the people. He was very focused on his purpose there and did a lot for the entire team... Even when nobody knew and some were even unappreciative... But at the end of the day, God knew.

And that was all that matter, wasn't it?

Yuu huu!

Just came back from orch. prac! Haha! We had a special guest today! Fresh from UK! He plays the cello and is a church bassist and was here to impart some knowledge to the cellists ... So before everyone came, I was alone fiddling with my cello and suddenly Eric and him walked in...

*Stunned*

Eric: Hi this is Jonty.

Me: *looked at him* Hi... *Stunned + smittened*

(Silence)

Then both of them talked while standing in front of me... I was just sitting there too speechless to say anything. And would rather not... I think Eric saw my expression! He was grinning away...

And to make myself useful, he wanted me to call 2 other cellists. YES Sir. I needed them to come so desperately hahaha... So next he brought Jonty up to the roof garden for a look and most probably to kill time too. Phew. But they came back too soon and the cellists were not here yet!!!! And the worst thing was, Eric had to go take something and so I was stuck with him!

He was really good looking and everything nice... I mean at least for the first impression... So what do you do with someone like that?

1) Remain cool-headed (or try to). Don't smile excessively. HAHAHA...
2) Ask him questions and make him talk. This is to prevent any 'spontaneous' things coming out of you.. LOL..

Haha no la... Kidding. Lol.

3 of us, HIM, Eric and TatHaur

Anyway prac was really fun today.. Eric was so funny and so it was quite light-hearted. Had a chat with a fellow cellist after prac while indulging in an ice cream.. More of me to love now! LOL...

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Celebrated Jason's bday with jc classmates! 2 sundays ago.. Haha..

Chocolate fondue for cg refreshment! 2 saturdays ago..

Haha it was quite fun..

Hmm... Why do people like to put things on my piano lid? Is it that tempting... I hate it.
Enough's been said and done... Maybe I should put a big note which says "Do not touch my piano"? Can't be bothered to even be polite and put a 'Please'... Argh........

I mean, even for myself, I'd make sure my hands are really clean before I play, if not I will wash it first.. and I will try to minimise contact with the lid when I open and close it, this is to prevent having nasty fingerprint stains... So imagine someone else come mess up my piano by putting stuff on it.. (from HP to cups to keys to books to plates to hands.....) No doubt I'll be boiling inside. When it comes to my piano, I'm VERY particular. Like it or not. =)

All of us have our own rules right?

Haha and today.. I was so mad laaa... I don't know why people are so fascinated by Jurong Point.. It's always so crowded... And it's really tough carrying my heavy cello around when people are walking so slowly and stopping irregularly.. So my cello head is always hitting the back of people's legs.. What happened was, I always try to dodge around and stuff... Today I was so frustrated by the 'indecisive crowd' (they didn't seem to know where to go?!) so I decided to carry my cello upright infront of me to get out of the crowd asap. And the next second, a girl banged right into my cello!!! I don't know how much bigger must my cello gets to be seen... I was really frustratedddd...

After the entire ordeal, I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was Cai's cousin! (Phew, thank God I didn't frown at him) He told me he witnessed everything I went through hahaha.. Horrible. But at the end of the day I'm still happy cos I'm doing what I love.

I think love is not blind but short-sighted, it only sees the bigger picture...
(Nice quote! Copyright k hahahaha)

A Happy Day

1) Work

I was really happy at work today hahahaha.. I don't know why. =) Perhaps it's my colleagues, I like them! Or perhaps because I have nothing much to do... =) But I was very very happy hahahhaha... Smiled at everyone and stuff... Lunched with 2 others and they talked about investments.. funds.. stocks.. and things like that... They made no sense to me though.

2) Holiday

YES!!! Perhaps it's this one. My boss is flying over to Prague, Europe tmr!!!!!!!!! So I can have self-declared holiday too... And it's not 1 day... nor 2 days.. nor 3 days.. But a good 8 days! Hahaha..

3) Prac

We did something different today! Had sectionals and then we played in quartet style but with more people... It was really quite fun but just a little exhausted after exuding so much happiness hahahaha... Got to hear another sweet love story from a fellow cellist... Which made us go 'aww...' hahaha... Recently people around me have been telling me about their bf and stuff and I have nothing much to contribute hahaha... So I just listened lor. LOL..

4) Piano

Received a surprise call from Linda during prac!!! She called to tell me that her teacher has an available slot and so I can have lessons soon!!! Finally.... Phew~ So that's another happy thing. Nothing's gonna stop me now!!! But that also means that my schedule will be super tight. Most of my days will end around 10pm, except perhaps Tuesdays and Sundays. But it's fine I guess cos I love everything that I'm doing. =)

Oh talking about Linda... (I know you read my blog!) She's my jc classmate and is flying over to Germany real soon to study for a good 6 years. I think that is really courageous of her, I don't know if I can... The thought of leaving behind my piano and friends and family.... Is too overwhelming. To make things worse, her dad bought her a one-way ticket!!! She's really strong I think. Hope I can save enough money to visit her some day...

On a personal note, Linda you have impacted me in a way or two with your gentleness and your ability to remain calm in any given situations. That's something which I really admire you about. It shows that inside you lives a fearless giant.. And hmm, I'll save the rest of the emo stuff for 4th of Sept. =(

Today I learnt a lesson.

On my way home with Bird and Alice, I made fun of a stranger! Not exactly the person but the thing she was carrying... (Now, don't look innocent...) And while laughing, a sharp guilt overwhelmed me. I had a revelation and God said harshly, erm reprimanded to be exact.. "What if that was your mum?"

At that point, I felt really solemn... And felt like slapping myself... Boo.

But I thanked God for teaching me how to live. I make mistakes, that's why I need God. And that's why all of us need God. Don't we?

I was also impacted by what Joyce Meyer spoke last Sunday. She taught us that we should treat others good as they are the very ones Jesus died for. Bam, it pierced through my heart... Not that I was mean, but now I'm more conscious... (And Alice please don't keep quoting this from me haha)

Talking about quotes, I had a free morning again, so I went to 'explore' my boss' room. Not sneakily ok!!! I have free access! And so I drew out a book from his 'library' (a short row of books) and read it. It was a book full of quotes... So having nothing to do, I wrote out some quotes I thought were worth writing as well as some vocab... It's a good habit to write down words we don't know and check the meaning for them... And so I came across a quote which I don't quite understand and need your help. It was weird, at first I understood, and then the more I thought it over, the more confused I got.

Didn't bring the notebook back haha so stay tuned for the mysterious quote. Hahaha.. -_-

I don't know what season is this now... There seems to be an influx of irritating bugs in my life...
Maybe I need more patience? Argh. Like what Joyce Meyer said earlier, miserable people should stay in bed and not come out and make others miserable too... AMEN. (I say, they should not only stay in bed, but should stay in bed and sleep as well)

Anyway, hehe.. Taught Alice a little bit of piano today... It was such a happy thing to do! =) I really loved it and glad that she enjoyed it too.. It was encouraging... Hehehe... Her reason for learning is quite cute haha... In any case I'll teach whoever is genuinely willing to learn.. It was quite sad to hear of someone who obtained a Grade 8 and not like playing the piano... It was for the sake of his mum... -_-

Gotta do everything with passion!!! If not, don't do it at all.

Yet to find a good piano teacher for myself... The earlier one lives in Punggol. Man.. I can't wait!!! I told myself that I should start this month... Boo.

Hmm..... Sometimes I think that some people I met are angels in disguise... Well, angels do come in human form too right. I really think so...

3 such persons are etched in my mind:
1) A stranger in the train

I was reading my bio notes and I forgot how, this old man beside me started chatting with me... He was a jovial person and so it was a pleasure talking to him. He was learning the Spanish language on a book and he told me he travelled a lot... Hmm... And he asked briefly about the notes I was reading, it was about photosynthesis. -_- Hmm... His words were so edifying, something I needed at that point of time as I was preparing for A level... He sounded so convicted that my future was going to be great... I felt that he was a special stranger and it was a pity he alighted at City Hall shortly after we chatted. (I remember unimportant things like that)

2) A distant Usher friend

I was 15 and was at the lowest point of my life... One day, while crying in my toilet, my hp rang. Silly enough, I picked up. -_- (When I think back now, I thought that was quite a courageous act...) So then I tried to be strong and hide my quavering voice. But apparently, I succeeded only for a few seconds, maybe just long enough to say a 'Hallo." and I broke down again.. Goodness, think I must have freaked that person out.. Hahahaha... Anyway, she talked to me and stuff and we ended with a prayer. And that was what I needed most at that time. Hmm... I guess it was more than a coincidence.

3) An 'annual' friend

(Hope he doesn't see this HAHA) Well, he's someone whom I talk to only when we bump into each other in church... And that's like once or twice a year? Haha... Hmm, well, I happened to see him last sunday before service started and went up to him for a chat. It was very nice talking to him (as always).. Told him briefly about my life and stuff.. And what he said really touched me to the extent that I had to blink to drain back 1 or 2 drops of tears before he saw it. Haha... Man... Guess it's true what Cai and my dad said about me.. I'm soft on the inside... Eh at least I made an effort not to show it. Haha.. So hmmm, that was spiritually refreshing...

Cool huh. See, God knows our needs and He understands. So when people you are unfamiliar with start speaking the right things at the right time into your life, then you know that there is something more behind it. =) Maybe I think too much? Haha I don't know...

It was a mad day.

1) Taxi driver

Woke up late today as I forgot to adjust my clock and it was raining sweetly, so I took a cab. As if my morning hadn't been bad enough, the driver had to make it worse.. Upon arriving, I handed her a $50 note and she told me she didn't have change. ...... -_- ......

Driver : Can you walk over to the coffeeshop (opposite) to change money?
Me: *fuming under my breath* (It was raining) Why don't you go over?
Driver : I can't leave my car.
Me: It is raining.
Driver : *blablablabla like it was my fault* Ok, I'll drive you over to the other one.
Me: -_- I thought it's expected that.... (I stopped abruptly as I realised it was stupid to argue)

So I had to walk under the rain again (no diff really) to do her job of getting smaller notes.. and still had to tolerate her frustration of having to drive another round.. (like I like being trapped in a car with her..?)

?!?!?!?!
It was ridiculous. Totally la...

So anyway, one happy thing, my boss went to play golf today! So it was quite nice.

2) Lunch

I had lunch with a group of Chinese (ppl from China). That was an amazing feat... A breakthrough.. Waha.. And I actually enjoyed it. LOL..

3) Fireworks

Met Alice to watch fireworks together! Hmm.. It was one of those wish-you-were-there moments... It was real spectacular and nothing compared to the one we all saw during NDP.. It literally pales in comparison. Haha.. And Alice is a stalker. She stalks on cute children hahaha..

Anyway I received a sms ytd... It goes like this...
"Tomorrow nite got fireworks. You want to come and watch? I got a secret place. No crowd. Clear View."
HAHA!! It sounds kinky huh. You wouldn't have guessed it. It was from my FATHER! HAHAHA.. He has a cute way of talking sometimes..

4) A strange stranger

On our way home, a stranger came up to us and asked for directions. Hmm, that initial conversation led to an 1-hour monologue from government to foreign workers to education... It came to a point where we were so exhausted hearing that stranger's rants and grumbles. She looked like she was in her 30s and well I guess she's been bottling up a lot and when there was finally an outlet (us) she just went on and on and on like a pressured champagne being released. Well, I did listen and sympathized with her.. What she said set me thinking.. About something else..

I told Alice I felt pampered... Pampered by God. We all live in the same world, all have our own mountains to climb, weird people to tolerate and toot to go through... But I have a Friend who sticks with me, a Comforter when I'm down, a Provider who gives me more than I need, and Someone who always gives me a reason to smile. Truly, what more can I ask?

5) My brother

In case you don't know, I have a younger brother. He walked past me in the train! And it took me a second to realise it was him... I stared at him as he passed by and actually smiled! He was looking good! Like the typical beach boys at Sentosa... Hmm... He's... Unpredictable... Sometimes he irritates me and sometimes he talks in a tone that, as a big sis, will melt my heart for a while. Like "wow, he's actually nice.." Haha! I'm mean. =P Think I should do something more for him.. Hmm..... =)

Very excited about tmr! Hehehe..

Job's way too fine... I even brought my music theory to do. After talking to Leon I felt challenged to take grade 5 theory next yr so gotta refresh a bit of grade3 stuff.. Anyway, this is my first time working with relatively many men (sounds weird..) and I'd rather work with men than 20+-yr-old women cos I can't stand some of their bitchiness... Most men are fuss-free, they do their own stuff and I do mine.. peace V! And it was also nice working with 30+ matured women.. Like they have seen things and know better what to do..

My boss is a 60+ men and so he tends to be long-winded and stuff... I really gotta suppress myself from interrupting him.. But it's fine... He's still strong and looking good for his age. Ha... And the best deal, he's only in the office 2-3 hours every day. So if you are free and wanna entertain me, please do! Haha. Befriended a Chinese (as in someone from China) and so I have to speak in Mandarin. Erm so.. that's by far the most challenging thing I had to do at work. Heard that my boss plays golf every friday.. Hope so! =)

And eh... It seems like everyone's attached now?! (Btw my dad doesn't like the term 'attached' being used for r/s.. maybe it's too strong a word for him haha) My colleague made it such a big deal to have a bf... -_- Don't understand really... Like "Huh so?"...

Some things I don't understand...
Why pretty girls are often the insecure ones...
and
Why rich men are often erm.. not that good-looking...

Haha anyway, few days ago on my way home, I was surprised this song came into my mind...
Surprised because it was one I heard when I was little and when it suddenly popped out, it was like flipping through an untouched diary..
Part of it goes like this..

I could gain the world and all its treasures
But nothing in this world can satisfy me

It is Your love
It is Your goodness
It is Your presence in my life
That satisfy...

Isn't it beautiful.. Simple and to the point... Heard that Corrinne May had a concert today.. Love her songs! Though generally her songs sound similar but her lyrics are really good. They sound real... and 'rawly' out of the heart...

Oh and on my way to work in the morning, I tuned in to Symphony 92.4 just in time to hear Andrew Lloyd Webber's "Music of the Night".. At that moment, my heart fluttered for a moment... You know the kind of feeling when you see your crush, just that it wasn't a nervous feeling, just a very happy one... I would have smiled if I wasn't in the train haha..

Woah. So many changes took place within such a short period of time...


1) I am officially out of choir.

It was an easy choice, but a hard decision. (Wah sounds profile huh. hahaha) Easy choice as I will choose to be in the orchestra rather than the choir as that was what I saw myself in perhaps 5 or 6 years ago? I always thought it's so 'cool' so be in the symphony orchestra and now that I am in, I wouldn't bear to leave. Of course the choir meant a lot to me too.. hence, it was also a hard decision to make a stand and tell myself to leave. But I had to......


Have been in the choir for 3 years or so, and I never once had to drag my feet up on stage to sing. It's been my greatest honour to be serving God in this manner... To share the view of speakers and musicians on stage... To lead the congregation in praise and worship... To usher down the presence of God... and to sing in harmony together with fellow choir members. It's been my pure joy and pleasure no doubt.
















Choir platform...

















Choir mike (those tiny dots below are the people)




















Soundcheck before service




















Shortly before service


Hey... I'm sentimental k... Hahaha. On saturday (2nd last time in choir) I actually tried hard to fight back my tears while on stage.. But unfortunately, I failed even during the first praise song. I wished it never ended though. Ok enough of emo stuff..


2) I am officially a secretary.


Today was my first day. It was boring in the morning and nowhere near sleazy as what my friend presumed -_- hahahaha.. The office is normally empty in the morning as the agents are 'out there' doing their stuff.. So it's good, I can read my nerdy book. One happy news though, I heard that my pay is a few hundred more than the previous lady wooo... Think I'm overpaid for the things I am doing.. LOL.. But who knows, it's just Day 1. My boss is a District Manager with 2 mangers under him (His son is one of them) and we had a meeting in the afternoon where they talked about growth rate and stuff.. and announced the top agents in the company... They are freaks I tell you. They can easily earn $1M/year... Well, it's good to be surrounded by rich people hahaha...


3) I have another side job


A friend cum colleague asked if I wanna help him call up people for just 2 hours every week and he's paying not bad. So will be speaking to people ranging from an accountant to a lawyer... May I sound professional! HAHAHAHA... And if those people agree to close a deal, I have comission too. May people not slam down the phone!


4) I am unofficially a piano teacher


HAHAHA.. So excited! Alice wants me to teach her piano!!! It's certainly my pleasure! =) So it will be on saturday before cg starts hehehe.. May she like it!! =)


And I'm still a tuition teacher too.. Wah am I on a working marathon or sth?? HAHAHA... Of course I will still and must set aside time for myself and for God. That's very important for me...


Yup, so enjoy what you are doing and things will be easier. =)


*Make my heart Your home*

It's back to a normal day today. LOL. Gave tuition in the afternoon and man... spoonerism was rampant after all those stuff last night.. LOL.. So my kids and I had a good laugh. Had cello lesson after tuition, it was quite enjoyable. =) But man... still have a looong way... I always encourage myself but quoting this from a great pianist, "You can't hurry in music." Hahaha.. Then I will feel better...

Anyway, I got a call from the AIA guy at noon... And he congratulated me for getting the job. As I just woke up, I thought I didn't sound excited enough hahahaha...

Erm, by the way, what does AIA stands for? HAHAHA...

God is truly my Provider! No doubt about that... He works in ways we cannot see. So who knows, a nobody (aileen) will soon be a sombody. Amen~~~ Happiness is..... Knowing that God is on your side and that we are more than conquerors.

Yesterday was madness I think. Haha. Met Wendy to watch NDP at the Padang! It was truly a great experience watching it with fellow Singaporeans under a cloudy sky in the midst of skyscraper.











The largest umbrella flag thingy















our 10 o'clock










our 6 o'clock










Patriotic Wendy, LOL this makes a nice propaganda picture!













They gave us this starwars stick haha. That's the court behind me and look at the sky! The sun was setting..











And no.. Those were not birds!










Nice setting!










Reminded me of 911 hahaha..

Haha next to went to PS to watch '881' HAHA. Support local films!!! Thank God I understand dialect cause approximately 80% of the show is in dialect. Quite funny.. Lol.. Will give it 7.5/10

And then we proceeded to MOS. Finally broken my record...










At 12:23am











Dancing people














Volka lime. Eww. I don't like anything alcohol but I finished it anyway.. And ended up getting Evian later. HAHAHAHA... Loser right? LOL..

Anyway there was one funny incident. Wendy and I were dancing on the rotating platform and suddenly a guy beside me asked if he and his friend can dance together with us. I was very puzzled. Totally.. Like how 'together' did he want? Hahaha -_- Anyway I found out that he was younger and very much like the jc boys u see around town.. (Talking abt jc, I'm so disconnected now. No more uniforms, morning assemblies and PEs forever... And I haven't collected my A level cert. =P)

Left the place at ard 330. 3 hours of madness there hahahaha.. I was totally KO-ed by then.. It was a good experience I would say, had a great cardio workout. Waha.. But it's not my kind of place to hang out at, probably won't ever go again even. I actually felt homesick for ard 5 seconds over there hahaha.. I'm a homely person k.. lol..

Weird, I woke up at 9.30am today. Met Yeekiat at East Coast to rollerblade... Weather was really cheerful and sunny.. (But unfortunately I'm still white... Cai's getting disgusted already haha) There were troops of army boys/men doing their runs (nice bods!) and many noisy red secondary school kids around.. It was a fun day but I am mentally exhausted now...

Reason being...

Today marks my last day of choir prac. SAD. It was a nice memorable last prac for me, which made me feel worse. We learnt a new song "God of My Forever" and sang in a cappella for another song.. It was fun cos I managed to catch my part! I am most comfortable singing low low parts.. Anyway hmm... Glad Lili was with me at the prac, I like her a lot... Stood beside her while singing Christmas carols at Vivo and during Benny Hinn crusade so she's a special friend in choir.. Hmm.. She waited for me after prac as my IC wanted to talk to me.. I felt quite touched.. Kk thou shall not be emo. Anyway.. Hmm.. I'm speechless now.. Experiencing mental block once again..

So.. Yea..

What a day!!!


Received a random call from Reid in the morning and he wanted me to help out in a game which comprised of some Japanese kids and boys from St Gabriel's. So I agreed since I have nothing on at night.. LOL it was great fun! The kids were so adorable hahaha.. So we went around places to eat stuff lol, the Japs were quite particular about food though. They didn't like beancurd and you tiao?! LOL.. But they loved Paus hahaha..















My group.. We went to that famous store in Geylang and man... We couldn't find our way!! For some reasons, I forgot it is a red-light district and gullibly asked a prostitute for directions. She glared at me! It was funny though lol..
















That V. Japs are cute la. No denying. Haha..












The group leaders with some Jap girls. V V V V V lol..












pei min V reid V aileen

I like this pic a lot!!! The thing which he was holding is an English-Japanese translator. So cool right.. We had a steamboat buffet after the game. Reid treated me la cos I only had REN MING BI with me.. -_- and there wasn't any money changer around.. Me and the weird things I have..

Oh and I met Nessi (sec sch clique) in the train!!! We haven't seen each other for yearsss but we still clicked super well LOL.. I like her a lot cos she will laugh with me. LOL.. Not just 'Haha.' but 'HAHAHAHAHAHA' lol.. Good. I need more friends like that so I wouldn't appear that silly. =P

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Received a call from Wendy (choir friend) too! She asked if I'm free on National Day.. I was like "Oh when is that?" LOL.. Can someone wake me up.. LOL.. Anyway, I hadn't had any plans so she came up with a brilliant plan for us. That is to watch the live telecast at Padang then a movie and then MOS!!! (Talking about MOS, it reminded me of a fateful day when I ordered Teriyaki Burger at Mos Burger only to be told they ran out of buns. -_-) Clubbing!! I'm not sure if I will
like it though, haven't been to one. Hope that it's not too crowded! Haha.. Excitement!

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Went for an interview in the afternoon at AIA for the position of a Secretary. (Don't laugh =P) Anyway I thank God that it went well! I knew I wasn't being myself then..

Cos there was
NO SPOONERISM
NO STUTTERING
NO MENTAL BLOCK

It couldn't be me really hahaha..
The interviewer made 3 comments that I am
- suitable
- a good communicator (Bird don't laugh LOL..)
- pleasant

So I guess there is 80% I can get it..
The other 20% I can't..
10% - Can't work for long
10% - I made a stupid-sounding happy sound at the end of the interview. !!!!!!!!! That was a BIG sin.

Sigh I hope he will overlook that........

I will not make funny noise again.
I will not make funny noise again.
I will not make funny noise again.


Phew what a day~

Oh, it was Festival of Praise last weekend! Hehehe, 123 churches gathered at the SIS and we were united as one. It was a joy praying, praising and worshiping God together. =)!! A pure joy. We had Delirious? and Don Moen! I thought Don Moen looked quite cute for his age haha, especially his smile!

Don Moen

God's presence was really strong as well,

had a great time soaking up the atmosphere.

Full house! =)

Cai and I hehehe.. That V has a story behind hahaha..

Ok ok lunch time!!

Had Cello lesson today... and I had to sing. SING! Well, I used to love singing a lot a lot.. Until I have this nasal conjestion thingy. It's irritating and so I stopped singing for fun. Anyway I had to sing in semitone! Something which I am real bad in. I was told I need to improve in my pitching and tone... See, when you play the piano you are not mindful of how each note sounds like cause you simply just have to press that key!!!!!!!!!! Sigh..

I always get into the emo mood after lesson....... Cause it's a time where your errors are 'boldly showcased'? And negative thoughts will start flooding my mind... It surely is a mental torture I tell you... So after lesson, I went to the National Library to emo a little and then went home... Feeling emo all the way. A guy who was walking in the opposite direction suddenly talked to me. I had my earphones on so I couldn't figure out what he said, I just looked at him in a daze and walked off nonchalantly. But I heard something like "big guitar"... A lot of people have mistaken my cello for a guitar when i carry it!!! A LOT... Wait till they carry it..

Anyway, look at the last piece of paper in a book. My mind was as blank as that the whole day!!! Sometimes I really don't know what's going on inside of me... See, when my mind is blank, it's damn irritating. I will suddenly speak like I don't know grammar or sentence synthesis. It's worse than my most powerful and infamous spoonerism. And I hate it when that happens. To begin with, I don't have much to say sometimes. So when my mind is blank, it becomes a tragedy. It's then the best time to play piano and emo together...

Look like I have nothing intelligent to say recently... I miss GP. =(

A great bunch of unassuming Choir BOYS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FKpP8gTblSM
Heavenly music~ My heart smiled while listening...

Julian Lloyd Webber the cellist, brother of Andrew Lloyd Webber.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ljII_bRQQk&mode=related&search=
Perfect.

Somehow sometimes, simple and slow songs are the hardest to play... Because each note has to be expressed clearly and 100% in tune. I'm amazed by how cellists (except me) can hit the same spot on a fretless fingerboard so accurately where even 1mm difference will produce a different sound.. Guess it takes a hell lot of practices..

Now my only wish is to play better today than yesterday. Can't afford to play anything worse.. Goodness... I guess my 'grace' period is gonna be due soon.. Hahaha.. People are gonna expect more from me.... Have to keep confessing God's word now... Haha..

For some weird reasons I can't put up Youtube videos here.

Anyway, check this out http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uzenVzL_yoc

I didn't know they have accompliment for this song but I thought it was too overwhemling..

My beloveds. The piano score is by Yiruma - I, still mad about it... After being inspired by Yang lol... Feel like going Esplanade again!! YANG!!!! lol...

The silly amatuer cellist

Oh check this out too. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9E6TFb6QRk&mode=related&search=

Too intimidated by the score to try... and Yiruma's songs need us to be in the emo mood to play hahaha.. I hope I can perform like him ONE DAY...

SIGH..................................

Anyway, I'm currently reading this book - my birthday gift LAST YEAR lol..

Nice fictional bedtime story.. And since I have the luxury of time now, I've spent every night reading until the words turned into mere alphabets sitting side by side.. And you may wannt to find out more about the author, she is rather interesting..

Had orchestra prac just now... The rest of the cellists pang seh-ed me!!!! I was the only one again... And this time we ran through "Pomp and Circumstance", a nightmarish song for the strings!!! Check it out at YouTube if you want. Goodness gracious, I somehow managed to barely survive. I thought I played real bad, but another commented that I have improved! So I was happy. (You can roughly know how bad I was previously.)

Ya I was BAD. Now better... But not good yet...

It's really all in your mind... I feel good each time I conquer every negative thought. Playing music takes more than just skills and techniques, it's a constant battle up in your mind... Well, at least for me. Frankly speaking, when I first joined the orchestra, I was 'tekaned' so many times... It was quite devastating. Once I was on the verge of breaking down during one of the practices... And sometimes I felt like giving up... But I kept telling myself to give my best now that I am in it...

Of course the first steps are the hardest. I avoided Charles for quite some time due to phobia... It's hard to believe how someone can be afraid of a non-living thing right. But ya, I didn't touch it. Looking at it made me damn sad. Ok thou shall not be emo~ Anyway, I conquered my fear!!! I played note by note with my piano cos I don't have a tuner and cello doesn't have frets. Practise practise practise... And ta da! I'm loving Charles more now...

So positive reinforcement works wonders. We wouldn't know when just one more practice will cause us to hit our threshold. (Don't know if it makes sense haha)

Ok anyway, if anyone has CPF of more than S$5000.00 and is interested to invest in it, please contact me. Collabrating with my Dad. =)

Ah, went for an interview at 10AM. My goodness, I somehow managed to wake up before the alarm went off. Oh in case you are wondering, I applied for a CHILDCARE teacher's position. Hard to believe I know, I don't like rowdy kids and I can't stand screams and shouts... THEN WHY?! HAHA.. Am I out of my mind?! Yes. LOL.. Maybe I just like teaching...

So then when I reached the childcare, I wasn't exactly excited by what I saw - a teacher trying to 'catch' a running kid.. Eww I thought. Wasn't nervous too as I wasn't too hard up for the job.. And when the interviewer revealed the salary well, I was so tempted to stand up and walk away hahahahaha.. It's pathetic considering the working hours.

Anyway, I met Idy (my ex choir ic) on my way back in the bus, so we talked. She's a very pleasant lady... Don't really know her but for some reasons I always look up to her. Maybe it's her fighting spirit, not starkly displayed but somehow I know she's a strong lady. =)

Met Louisa on the train recently as well, and she introduced a piano teacher for me. It's hard to find a good piano teacher amidst a pool of them... And she was quite 'enthu' about the teacher so I know it can't be that bad.. Haha it's nice to bump into nice people out of the blue, somehow it adds a sparkle to my day.. =)

During the conversation with Jeff a couple of days back, I was actually quite taken aback, erm.. maybe surprised, that he actually (seriously) wanted me to find a BOYFRIEND after I proudly declared that I didn't have anyone in mind. It brings me back to a fateful night when I dreamt that he had a girlfriend and casually smsed him the next morning about it. True enough, he was just attached and lo and behold he is getting married next year. HAHA he can't hide anything from me! LOL! Kidding.

Talking about dreams, I have a few weird dreams recently. I dreamt about my 'dream' house (literally) again! For the 3rd time already... It has a huge open balcony and best of all, my bedroom has a transparent ceiling which I can look up to the sky!!!!! Sky!! And that the uppermost floor is vacant, due to excess space hahaha.. May my dream come true. Lol..

Oh I just received an sms, "Aileen I want to date you out!!" HAHAHAHAAHAHA. I love frank people. But I still can't bring myself to say what Bird blurted out yesterday. TS level: 10. LOL.. Ok I'm getting cranky, gotta get a job soon man. LOL..

An Eccentric Day. (See, whoever puts the title at the back?!)